For the last few days, I’ve been in quite the funk.
I’ve been struggling with sadness, anger and resentment.
And I had been navigating it as I have successfully done so in the recent past…
By looking within, meditating, Socratic Questioning, and processing… (doing the inner work) and quite honestly, I felt as though I was doing and handling this fairly well…
But then yesterday and this morning, I realized that I had been being a bit snippy, and that I had been taking some of this processing out on the outside, (and more specifically, out on my partner, Peter).
So this morning, after he left, and I had a moment to myself, I sat quietly and I meditated…
And during my meditation, I asked the universe if I could,
“please have some wise words placed within my path that would help me better process the emotions that I’ve been working through…as I have not been handling it as well within as I had thought…”
After which, I sat quietly, and held the space for as long as I felt the need…and then I went as usual about my morning.
Not long after, as I was preparing breakfast for myself and River (my two-year-old-son), I went searching for something to listen to as we ate. Ordinarily, I would put on an audio book, some soothing sounds, or I would have asked River if he wanted to select a song from his list of favorite “kid songs.” But in this moment, I felt the inspired idea to look through my book of “old mixed CDs.”
(Something I haven’t done in quite a long time. Funny and random, right? LoL!)
I chose the one that spoke to me in the moment, which was a mixed CD that I made for myself about a decade ago, and I played it for us as we ate.
I wasn’t paying much mind to it, I was hardly listening, but simply smiling at the songs that a past self selected, until the words of one started speaking straight to my soul.
~They were the words I needed to hear in this moment.
~The universe was speaking directly to me, per my request!
“I know it’s hard on a rainy day,
You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone,
But don’t run out on your faith,
‘Cause sometimes that mountain you’ve been climbing is just a grain of sand,
And what you’ve been out there searching for forever is in your hands,
And when you figure out love is all that matters after all,
It sure makes everything else seem so small.”
(You may recognize this previously popular song.)
Shortly after, I found myself sobbing (ugly crying). The wise words spoke so deeply and meaningfully to my current state of being and processing.
After allowing many emotions to process through me, I again went within and thanked the universe for its guidance and expressed the true, deep depths of my gratitude.
The point I’m trying to make is…
When you’re going through a tough time, the key is to look within, meditate, and ask the questions.
-Questions such as “What am I actually feeling? Why am I feeling this way?”
-Allow yourself the space and grace to feel & process what surfaces. Sometimes, you may even need to directly address the universe, asking for help and guidance.
-Allow the space for the universe to answer. Do not hurry, simply trust. Trust that the universe will help guide you.
-Then, don’t hesitate to follow the inspired ideas that present themselves.
~The funny thing is, the universe may answer:
in some extraordinary, divine way,
with something spiritual,
with something spectacular,
or with something profoundly poetic…
but sometimes, the universe answers by placing the “silly CD” you burned for a road-trip a decade ago into your hands, and you find yourself laughing at the line-up your past-self selected…until something speaks directly to your soul…
*Be open to whatever inspired ideas present themselves & don’t hesitate to take action!
~The universe is listening.
*The key is to ask & to trust.*
Trust yourself.
Trust the universe.
Trust the process.
Trust!
-Where you find the answers you’re after may surprise you. 😉
